i'm getting better at not checking my email in the morning. it used to be that it would be my first thing out of bed... now i'm purposely avoiding the computer. i am reading, writing, doing what feel to be soul-nurturing things. especially on a day like today, when i'm going to record music. i am starting piano tracks today, on a beautiful grand piano, thanks to M. i don't know where i'd be on this record without the generosity of so many friends. certainly nowhere near where i am now.

i get nervous but i don't know it. i avoid actually starting... without realizing it. then i see what i'm doing... what am i afraid of? not getting the mucho mundo perfect take? there are always more takes. the main thing to remember: there are much bigger things going on in the world than what i'm doing here. more serious things to worry about if i'm going to worry already. be grateful for what i am able to do with my day today.

currently reading: Cat's Eye by Margaret Atwood
highly recommend: Oryx and Crake (also Atwood)

i want to build my own tremolo pedal.

k