well the day is off to a stellar start... in our sleepy haze we got all the way to the airport before realizing that we'd left our precious garment bag in our apartment, with our fancy duds for the awards show in it. argh! there was not enough time to go back and get it and still make the flight, so we opted for changing my ticket to a later flight. Marc went on to Halifax because he had an afternoon rehearsal, and i came home (where i am now) and went back to bed. my flight will get me into Halifax around 5:30 which is hopefully enough time to catch the end of the welcome reception. so far... haha. i was in a pretty dark mood leaving the airport to retrieve the freshly parked car from the park n' fly... especially when the driver of the park n' fly shuttle tried to tell me how to work my suitcase and then proceeded to be a loud obnoxious idiot for the entire shuttle ride.

at least i get to enjoy a little of the summery temps here in Toronto today... it's supposed to hit 20 degrees!! and i get to be more awake on the plane... showered, and dressed in real clothes (i couldn't bring myself to wear more than my grubbies at 4:30am but i always hate stepping off the plane like that). what do you think... heels? :)

4:30am wakeup... the first of our sleep-deprived nights this weekend, and we haven't even left toronto. marc was playing a gig in st. catharines last night, so i packed as much of his stuff as possible to make it easier on him. i was falling asleep by the time he got home at 1:30am, but he was up a while longer. definitely a 4 shot espresso morning for him.

hopefully i can log some sleep on the flight. i think i'm starting to get excited. :)

less than 48 hours!!! i found a dress, thanks to courtney and her excellent shopping expertise. also found some awesome gold strappy shoes. :) i can't remember the last time i wore a dress, to be honest! now i've got the list paired down to a few smaller items, but nonetheless, time consuming. this has really made me realize how infrequently i shop for clothes, shoes, or anything.... when something like this comes up, i'm like a fish out of water. but i'm having fun now, think it's gonna be a great weekend. more later!

i am plagued with computer woes these days, and it's making me quite depressed. today we had yet another hard drive become toast on us... this makes 2 that are now unusable. on this one I lost my entire iTunes music library... most of which is not such a big deal because it's on my iPod, except that I also lost all the mp3 copies of my song demos from 2000-2003.... in order to get those back i'm going to have to drive over to our storage space and root through boxes and boxes to try and find some old dusty cd copies. yuck. i probably won't do it, because i don't have the time, and therefore, won't really have mp3 copies to ever go back to for a while. well, not that i was using them every day anyways.

ugh. i hate computers these days. now i'm having to reimport a whole bunch of stuff just to put together a setlist for the band for next month... redo a whole bunch of work i'd previously done. blah. like i really had a lot of extra time for this.

so my day is going swimmingly. at least they seem to have stopped the jackhammering on the floor above us... it woke us up this morning for the 3rd week running... maybe they're finally done that part of the renovations. it's just horrible and very hard to hear yourself think, much less finish the EP we've been trying to mix and finish before the Junos.

blah.

i tried to take today as a writing day... completely clear with no outstanding obligations... but now i'm starting to think that i'm only chipping at an iceburg. maybe what i need to do is go away to some hideout in the mountains for 2 weeks and see what comes out then. somewhere where i can't be reached and vice versa, therefore i don't feel guilty for not doing practical things day after day (answering email, etc). maybe it's because i spent monday and tuesday in a totally administrative headspace... i had some bills and accounting to catch up on, more than the norm.... but i find it's generally hard to "switch gears". then when i have a day like today, booked off with a big red "WRITE" on it... i feel like i must produce, produce, produce.... i wrote something this morning but it just felt like a rip-off of something else... then i basically had to face the fact that i have a bit of writer's block. i have that horrible feeling like i'll never write another song again. i'm out of ideas. nothing is coming.

so after flopping around the house in my own misery for a while, i headed out on the street. $50 later i found myself back at home, with about 12 hours worth of dvd rentals and some plants and potting soil. made a mess of the kitchen, but now i have some nice new members of the family.... i brought home a jade plant, which i used to have as a kid... i named it Margurita... and it reminded me of how i used to name all my plants as a teenager. in particular, i remember a pair of english ivy plants that went by the names of beethoven and schubert. schubert is still an especially good name for an ivy plant. all those little leaves scattered romantically across the vines... remind me of the notes of a waltz scattered across a staff.

*sigh*

i'm totally depressing myself today. vodka it is. watched my first 2 movies and found them ho-hum... disappointing. maybe i'll resort to Season 10 of Friends. can't hurt at this point.

(i must insert here... in retrospect, after - or during - a period of extreme busy-ness with touring, business, or whatever, i usually take a day or two of this kind of restless hopelessness before i can get primed to write anything. i need to get used to the concept... but it never gets any easier).


ps: had an interview yesterday that i felt i really bombed on... blah. maybe it was the lack of coffee... maybe it was just my poor social skills. maybe i should have had some vodka first.

had a dream i was fighting giant hordes of fruit flies. they were coming in from everywhere... every time i opened a door or a window. buzzing around in giant black clouds.

very tired this morning... spent a very long day at the Phoenix but discovered a great fast indian restaurant. Marc and the boys played a great show, and Lidia and I geeked-out over her new blackberry. i am so slow typing on it... i feel like a little kid with a computer again... don't know how people get their thumbs around so fast! :) Anyways, very long night, especially for poor Marc, as he was playing with both openers and the kings themselves... add the 2 hour soundcheck to that and it makes for a tired boy. However, we couldn't sleep in the morning, cuz i need to drive him over to a rehearsal for his gig tonight - he's playing Massey Hall with Susan Tedeschi and the Blind Boys of Alabama. It never stops ... but it's all good :)

i was really feeling like a girly-girl yesterday... i actually started thinking about what i'm going to wear and - gasp - ways to fool around with my hair for the junos. lol. i probably won't do much about it until the week before, though. However, last night i did wear my hair pinned up as an experiment... it was fun and i liked it a lot, so maybe that's one style to add to the non--existent "arsenal". I'm just so out of touch with stuff like that... who has the time?

Well marc may be at massey hall but as for me..... STREET TEAM PARTAY TONIGHT! See you there... come drink with me. lol. k